Day 2012. It was our 10-year anniversary, and so I got up early and set up the lamp with our picture and wedding date in the kitchen, where Randy would see it, when he got home. Then I lay back down in bed. Later Randy thanked me for the lamp; for the first time in 10 years he had forgotten our anniversary, but I didn't mind.

Day 2011. This morning the alarm went off at 6:30, and Randy got up to make breakfast. He normally gets up at 7 for that. At 7:15 am I got up. It had taken me over an hour to fall asleep last night, and once again Tammy never came to our bed, only Emmy in the early morning hours.

Day 2010. On Mondays Sammy goes to horse therapy instead of kindergarten. And so Randy left with Tammy and Emmy, while Sammy stayed with me. That meant no sleeping for me. He wanted to play, and he wanted to watch home videos which he did. At 10:15 am Randy left with him to go to horse therapy.