11 months 9 days

It's after 3 am, and the day seems far removed. I went to bed at 3 and could not fall asleep for a long time. At 8 o'clock Randy woke me because the internet technician was here. He told me he had installed a new modem and that the signal was stronger, but unfortunately that's not true and it doesn't reach downstairs where the office is going to be.
Randy had to leave at 9 am to go to our apartment where our friend Janos was so kind to meet him so Randy could load up his car with what was still left behind there, including some important stuff like my clothes! That meant I was alone with the babies at a time when I usually sleep, and I was very tired. Emmy now won't let you leave him even for a second and always wants to be held or to be on top of me when I'm on the floor with them. It's been like that for the last few days. I fed them all, changed their diapers, and they were all tired and ready for the first nap of the day. I helped them fall asleep, and was even able to slip out from under them. For a short time they were all sleeping! Too short. It seems Emmy knows when I'm gone. He woke up, and then his sister woke up. The nap was so short that they were still tired and continued fussing. In the few minutes I did have I was trying to find my hairbrush in what was here, but to no avail. It was also still at the apartment.
I was glad when Randy showed up pretty late at 11:30 pm. I said hello to Janos who said his good-byes. Then we started feeding the babies.
They were so tired that we thought we'd try to put them into their nightbeds to sleep, but that wasn't working. Then our friend Susanne arrived to help us for a few hours with them. What a God-sent! She was with them while I cooked for us and while we were eating. I was so exhausted I could barely work up the energy to cook! And I was supposed to leave at 1 pm to go to a doctor's appointment. I canceled it as I was not at all up to going there. I just had to lie down for a nap. Tammy was really tired and fussing too, so I lay down with her.
I closed my eyes for a few minutes, but then, out of desperation, I started contacting people to organize help. We just can't do this alone, nor should we have to! So instead of sleeping I was on the phone - succcessfully as I was able to find helpers for the next three days and the weekend. Thank you, Lord! However, Tammy woke up and I had still not had my nap, and I was still too exhausted to do anything.
Randy took Tammy and handed me Emmy, who I also helped fall asleep. We were both about to fall asleep, when Randy came back and woke us both up for good. He took Emmy, and I was finally alone and had a chance to take a nap. For an hour I slept like a stone, and could have gone on, but I knew our friend had to leave, and Randy needed to go to the grocery store. So I forced myself to get up, and found that Randy had already left. I also found that the babies were a real challenge for Susanne, as they were tired and fussing and a hand-full. After a short while I made their dinner and was feeding Sammy and putting him to bed, while Susanne had the other two, who were both not happy. I was hoping Randy was gonna come home soon. He finally did, and Susanne was able to leave us, having stayed longer than intended.
Sammy was already in bed, and I had put Tammy to bed, who did her usual dance, even though she was so very tired. Then Emmy came, and now I had two crying babies. We've taken a huge step back in terms of going to sleep. Emmy used to fall asleep without crying before the move. Now he was crying with his sister, and tonight it was his sister who fell asleep first. Emmy continued crying, and I was stroking his head. Before I was stroking both their heads at the same time. I sat on a chair right in front of him, so he could see me. It took a long time before I could walk away.
I felt so much better having had a one-hour nap and was ready to get working. Both Randy and I ate and worked for a few hours. Just before midnight I dream-fed the boys, a little less than yesterday. I didn't even pick up Emmy but fed him right there in bed, and it's working. It's 3:30 and he has not woken up. Not so Tammy who usually sleeps through the night. At 1:30 am she woke up, and it took me 45 minutes to get her to sleep again! It's nearly time for Randy's shift to start (at 4 am), and I'd better get some sleep, as another busy day is coming up.